okay, so i'm bored and these blog functions well, to relieve my boredom.
anyways, was fiddling around with my guitar just now and somehow got a tune out. well, being the depressed state i'm in, i wrote a song. like wow, i actually managed too. but gosh, don't read it, cos it's a heartbreaker/depressing song - something that dee likes. -.-

oh wells, it's called "leave".

you said you loved me,
but i don't see that.
i know you said you care,
but all i see is pain.
you do things to me
but..i don't know if you know

why don't you just let me go
i'll think it's best
i need time to think
and be by myself
i don't know what i can do
but i know what i can't
and that is being there for you..

i know your expectations,
of me as your girl
but i don't think that..
i can be that girl now..
why, i don't know, but all i know is,
i fall short of that girl,
no matter how i try...

so i'll just take my time,
and take my leave too,
you don't understand me.
you don't even try!
all, i see, is lipwork itself
but where is the truth?

you pressure and cajole,
but never spared a thought
everything is for your own good,
do you really care?
time is still abundant,
like you always said.
i know you'll try, to stop me from walking
but baby, i need to be myself now.
to be the person i know and love..

you try to control me, and i don't want that .
i need someone stable,
who surprises me and cheers me up,
who cares and loves me too.
and baby, i'm sorry, but it isn't you..

maybe next time, in years to come,
we could try it again,
but there's no promises..
for now, let me go.
or at least, give me time
to sort out my thinking
i'll let you know soon,
but, don't.. be too ..hopeful.