cool new packaging for ribena, sparkling. i like.

sweet addiction. pun intended.

hurr hurr. my chocolate collection. bear. don't be jealous.

little did i know this ominous clouds were a sign that today would suck.

okay anyways, i promised dee and isaac and ben to not emo, so i shan't
emo about life.

i took pictures. yes bear, i took out majority of my collection and pictured it. you can see for yourself. LMAO.

grr. later gonna go study,. i wanna bowl.

dee, i just want ya to know even if i hang out with guys, as i usually do, you have my assurance and don't have the need to be jealous aite. and and, exam stress is gonna be over soon, and we can resume where we were. till wednesday, do take care aite.

so today was the shittest day ever. i'm sorrt dee, i know it's supposed to be a happy occasion. but seriously. its GAHH. well dee, now that orals are over, i do feel much better. heh. oh wells.
mm. i'm tired. anyways, replies to tags:

dee: i don't emo as often as you do la. (you shouldn't anyways, now at least) but i don't know. maybe it's the exam stress. or smt. just don't see the meaning of life anymore. but yea well. life still has to go home.

grace: so how's your ballet thingy and the hours after with him?
and what's wrong with me and dee?lol.

simin: nah your blog is emo enough, but i just suddenly felt like life was so.. urgh.
bear would probably get what i mean, cos she saw what i saw in philippines. just pure happiness, amongst poverty.

simin: the nigga post, like i said was random. and yes, it could be tom robinson's great grand grand child or smt.

shaggy, bear and simin: the chicky is cute, but not simin. (:

bear: HAHA. you take lit, raise standard? LMAO. shankar shure give you 25/25 one.

pearlyn: yes yes thanks for the very exclaimy filled tag, very nice of you. thank you. and,. i'm not silly! -.-

like clouds who are supposed to be white and fluffy.

you see dark cumulous clouds slowly engulfing them.

light versus dark. who wins? looks like dark is reigning the game.

goodbye, life. hello rat race. hello, pain.

life - happiness becomes being sucked dry. enter into the life of the rich and famous.

boredd. reading mds is shat. i want to give up already. so many more acts. *faints* i shouldn't even bother. think i'll stop.
dee is like having school from 9-5? wth. you suck, school. he's not concentrating! dee, concentrate! RAWR.
yeah. going swimming later. i've given up on studies. phuck them. simin's right.
they ain't everything. waste 20+ of your life for shit? study? to get a job later?
no thanks. i'd rather go live in countries like philippines, go back to payatas. you'll see true meaning of life. true meaning of happiness. no money, no pain, no backstabbing,no rat race, no damn psps and what fancy shit we have. christ, if we even get our fancy butts out of the country to some poverty-sticken ones, not milan or america, maybe we'll find real truth. not gucci bags, armani clothes.
damn, give those poor kids a pair of bells, they smile and sing for the rest of the week. a bell. just a bell. that's all you need. us? heck, give a spoilt 8 yr old an iphone. see if he'll be happy 3 months down the road.
feeling damn shit now. where's home? this? here? yea, right, not in a thousand years. sigh.
i was scaring dee yesterday by being all pessimist, by saying i wanna die, disappear from the face of the world. go back to daddy god. not like i'll be missed here. it'll probably be a shit load better life for everyone. no more troubles from me. gahh. i still think it's true. if i actually had guts, i'd jump. but jumping is for cowards. so whatever.

ps: dee, i know its not friday or tuesday and i can't emo. so yea, you can punish me then.

pictures overdued,

this is the picture i promised simin. doesn't look like her?

the 3 bars of choc i bought. heh. bear says i'll be fat.

i finally thrashed ben. and i was just warming up!

damn stupid ugly candid shot of him

*shhh, don't tell him. he thinks i didn't get anything*

final score.

gtg fly now. movie now! RAWR.

okay. so i'm gonna post a damn quick post. i have 5 mins. before i go and watch wanted, rawr. oh wells. math was totally screwed. but not like i cared. i kinda expected it so yea. i did my best by at least knowing my formulas. oh wells. what was with question 9 man? EVERYONE left that blank. geeez.

anyways, rushed home. supposed to like meet ben for gyming session at csc. ended up i was damn early. so, i went to break first. yeah but i stopped early cos dee was very worried i break my wrist. HEH. i'm sorry to worry you, dee. (:

then anyways, the gym is damn damn nice, in fact, the place is frigging nice. it's like.. wow. they even got swimming pool, play pool, normal pool and lazy river! how cool is that? this will be my new hang out, yo! the gym was..darn cool. i so loved the locker room! and the showers were very grand. i'm gonna be gyming there more man, most prob with ben.

played 5 rounds of bowling. 2 round wwas the shittest i ever played. 3,4.5 was the most fun. my average was 5th was each turn hit at least 8. whoots.

now i'm back, gonna watch wanted. sorry, dee. i din't ask you first. (:
so i'm gonna bounce now. pictures later.

another random post. was still boredd. so. was listening to "100 years" by plies. it's damn funnyy.
ps: the lyrics is damn crass and vulgar. if you're a devout of sorts, DON'T LOOK.

the number of times Plies raps" nigga" : 16

[Intro]My nigga e'erytime I think this shit gettin' rough out here for me my nigga...
I just remind myself dog Monday through Friday homie...
From 8 in the mornin' to 5 in the evenin' dog...
It's some niggas in the court room 'round the country my nigga...
Fightin' for they muhfuckin' lives dog...
The crackers bannin' niggas e'eryday my nigga
[Verse 1]My dog went to court today they gave him fifteen Cracker banned my lil' nigga he was se'enteen
Young nigga don't even know what all that time mean
Pussy ass crackers done shattered my nigga dreams
They holl'in' mandatory they want him to do the whole thang
Nigga showed up in court on my dog and did his thang
Nigga did my nigga now I got to bust his brain
Nigga woulda did me my dog'd do the same
His lady callin' me cryin' and now I feel her pain
Tired of losin' all my niggas to the chain gang
In thirty minutes a nigga whole life can change
Cracker over sentencing niggas when this shit gon' change?

this like only the intro and verse? HAHA. he calls his homie "dog" too. like. err.
oh wells. it's just a rapper thang. so. oh wells. it's just damn funny. dark humour.

whee! i'm back! haha. well i'm happy. not that prelims is over. it's not. -.- it sucks like hell. grr.
anyways, thank god its just math tmr, if it was heavy subjects like today, i swear i would have killed myself.
then good luck to you, dee. that is, if you even bother. tee hee.
oh wells. history was okay la. just kicking myself for not doing half of one source based till last min. i know how to do but no time! rawr. oh wells. bio was... -.- better than chem, I HOPE.

trained home. bought 3 big bars of chocolate. LOL. i'm so gonna like get fat? sylvia bought something.. interesting. haha today is her "lucky" day. HAHA.

i'm like slacking now? whee. don't know what d is doing now. he just finished class, last i heard. rawr. yippie! wednesday!

studies, fly away. you suck. anyways, softball got nationals today.. i THINK. sasha said geylang meth. ithink. oh wells. i'm such a blur person. okay, sasha, you can stop bullying me. i promise i'll come down for your match after prelims aite? and don't pinch me. rawr.

grace and simin mentioned me in their post. should i feel honoured? oh wells. i shall return the favor.
grace, don't give up completely, your meetings with ---. as it is you guys al meet very lil'. maybe cut down a bit lo, but do'n't completely stop.
and simin, thanks for the song change. why no "miss invisible"? HAHA. i still hate yellow. banana muruku. horrible drink. i think it's probably illegal? i better contact MOH. hehe.

okay. so grace wanted me to blog. dee want me to study,. rawr. fine fine. chem today was.. screwed please. my A1 fly away already man. gosh. stupid answers, for some! some, i blanked out! rawr. geez. so reached home, and was bored, don't wanna study, no mood, so i did some breakd-ing and some freestyling, though i suck loads, but oh wells, i feel better now. my hand feels like jello. it always does, after breakd-ing. gahh. my wrist is.. dead. help. i need to strengthen my right hand man. if not cannot do air baby and air chair.

mm. i'm hungry. so is dee. haha curry chicken for lunch. boo. aite. gonna bounce now. tata.

Hellos! Crazy day ytd. Smses flying all over the place, emotions running high and all. Hmmm. Going crazy. Anyway. In school now, darl's having lit test at this moment. ZZZ. Another hour till lecture. Lol. Anyways, donno if I'm blogging everyday now. I gtg.

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I don't know darl. I really don't. Sorry.

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Hmmm. In school now. Super duper bored. That's why i'm posting. Oh wells. You're in school now too! First day of school.. And prelims alr.. Sad. Tell me more about your paper tonight yea? Gosh. Okok it's not a dare for her. It's a PUNISHMENT! Haha. Now your dare for me is... Hmmm.. tantalising. Haha! Only you know what that means right. =) Alrighty! Think i've blogged enough. Haha.

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back to post again. yesterday i had 8 posts? crazy. gahh.
and dee, mine isn't a dare, it's a punishment for bullying you, remember?
haha yours is the dare- tell you later. teehee.
anywaya, ate botak jones just now. i'm friggin' full, thanks a lot. haha whee ! finally bought my ben and jerry's ice cream! happy like bird!

B&J Chocolate Fudge Brownie! YUMM!

retarded faces my bro kept giving me when we took pictures! claimed he was "asleep" -.-

FINALLY, a nice big smile from him. probably cos i refused to let him sleep till he took a nice one. hurr hurr.

gahh. guess who put the stupid dog on my head? =.="

ps: i just checked MSN. none of stc girls are online. why am i not worried fro PRELIMS TOMORROW?!?!?!

I'm on the phone with darl now! Haha. It's like soooo nice talking to her. =) There's a new dare! (: The dare is for her tho. (:

Yay. Keep it a S-E-C-R-E-T. What the dare is about. (:

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right, so we celebrated dadddy's birthday. or rather, i insisted we did. haha. i made him the post, which is below. but i also made him another part of sandra's delicacies, a self-made ice cream firhouse with snicker crackers! whee. lol. i surprised him! omg i've been surprising quite alot of people over the past few days. oh wells. anyways, mum and kor didn't even know what i did for dad, (the ice cream thing)so they were pretty surprised as well. heh. dad was very happy and shocked. he couldn't finish the ice cream! yes, pictures!

chocolate, vanilla and strawberry firehouse for daddy!

melted snickers on crackers. yumm.

heineken, snicker crackers aand ice cream "cake".

my ice cream firehouse, topped with hot cadbury and marshmallows!

the whole little package, from sandra's kitchen!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY, AKA FAT MAN! I LOVE YOU!

Today is MY DADDY'S BIRTHDAY!! WHEE! yes yes! ilovemydaddy!
i've got a surprise for you, daddy!!!!!

you'll always be my coolest, hippest daddy! ILU.
meet the family - our cute bears as models. (:
my imitation of daddy.

details:his fav cheena cd (though he knows nuts about chinese)

my 3x3 rubiks cube, which he hasn't solved after soo long! (quickly solve,dad,my 4x4 awaits you)

candy empire jelly beans, his new craze, intro-ed by me!

his ever-present black cap and "act cool" adiddas sunglasses

his new handphone and his hip music, stolen from me and kor!

mum's imitation of daddy! details: his smelly old bolster, which he uses to cover he eyes when he sleeps, which is OFTEN.
again, his phone.
keropok - daddy's mouth never stops!
his self-learning "how to speak thai" books!
his harold robbins books (:

okay, so daddy, i hope you enjoy my surprise - this is the virtual one only, but i hope you like it!may you have a happy blessed birthday! i will love you forever! no matter how wrinkly and old you become, i will still want you. nobody can change the fact that you're my daddy and i'll always always remember everything you did for me. i love you forever, till death do us part. *amen.*

ps: as i'm typing this, i see mummy playing with my poor bear, dressing it in another caricature of you! HAHA.

oh and demello, i'm so so sorry you're poor bear got reduced to this state. it's not my fault! i still love the bear!

Hellos! Oh wells. I wanted to post this pic of me which makes me look like a darn mystery, but yea. i forgot till now that there're pics of me already. ._. well.. here's the pic! ( this is me before i cut my hair. roar)

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got nothing to do.. so.. anyways, this message brightened my day

from who? that's my secret.

dee refuses to let me be emo. so i shall be happy with him, as he requested. (:
anyways, i hate ashlee simpson and her new song, but. it's totally relevant to my feelings now. so. here it is.

(What?)Is that all you got to say?
(What? What?) You're rubbing me the wrong way
(See your lips moving)But I don't catch a word you say
(Shut up your chatter)I need for you to go away

And all I hear is ay ya ya ya ya
You're talking way too much
I can't even hear me now
All your noise is messing with my head
You're in my head

Get outta my head
Outta my, outta my head
Want you outta my head
Outta my, outta my head
Get outta my head

(What?) You looking at me for huh?
(Show me) Respect or I will show you the door
(Get out the door)
(Lately) I've got a problem with the way that you behave
(You're too much) And all your questions don't leave me no time for me, ha ha ha

All your opinions keep them to yourself
Just let me think so I can hear myself
Wouldn't it be nice if I could just go solo, take the day off?
I'd be alright if you would leave me to it, back the f*** out
Ay ya ya ya ya
You're talking way too much
You tell me one more time how I should live
I swear I'll bite your head off
I am who I am and I can't be no one else
You got nothing left to say
Keep your comments to yourself
Awww!

maybe i should like tha song now.

surprise!
All 3 in greyscale
bearie! =)

Alrightt... It's me posting.. Again. =) Hmmm. Yes darl. I did like the surprises. Here they are! =)

thanks dee. it looks nicer now! butbutbut you stupid boy, why did you wake up at 6 to do it!! rahh. go go sleep NOW!
i'm feeling like a pissed off, grumpy, angry old grandmother and only one person can make me feel all that. i'm sorry i ignored all your calls okay, but i'm not ready/don't want to face you. i don't know why. i just need time. is that so hard? you call like a thousand times, and msg hundreds of times, i'm asleep, dammit! i don't wanna talk. if i talk,you won't let me off the darn phone. and you will talk your way thru, most prob making it seem like its my fault again. i've done enough for you. what have you done? you have such expectations, such attitude. i can't take it. and now, you're giving me long messages about shit? you say you love, god, love is such a commercialised word now. do you really mean it? cos i see NO action at all. you say you're depressed and crap, i don't believe. i'm sorry, but i don't. oh , i have the power to break this or mend this? how about break? you just want me to come crawling back and say i'm sorry. well, i won't. if you won't leave me alone, and let me think things out, i'll go with what my heart say s now on impulse and say i'm walking.the whole day you kept asking me repetitive questions, are you a good bf? are you ok? do i love you? one, those questions are annoying after so many times. two, i don't think you are. i know another person better than you. happy now? you just don't match up to him. i gave you a chance first, i chose you, you didn't make use of it. and you should know exactly what happened the later part of the day that made me treat you this way. its hard for me, i can't so stop asking. just please, leave me alone. don't call me, i'll call you.

ps: don't look at me with those big puppy dog eyes,
pps: stop being so egoistical about yourself, joke or not.
ppps:your braces are $%^& pain.

a good end to a shit day.

lalala. yes yes, you blogged before me, happy?
haha. yes yes we took pictures too! he completed the dare too. heh. it was nearly a...only he knows (: so my gentleman picked me up and we cabbed to this cozy little jap place to eat. i made him choose my food! it was nice nice! i surprised dee too! whee, anyways. after that, we went bowling, 2 games, then we went bus riding everywhere! haha. but still, it was the best fun ever, dee is very funny, especially his shaking of head. lol. he nearly sent me home, and he completed his dare at the bus stop! and and yes, pictures!

dee likes my fringe??
bus-stop!
cheese!
without specs!
(:

right, so now i'm off to call dee! as requested. tata`

Hahahahahaa. I'm blogging before darl does! Omg. Haha. Crazy day. Hmmm. Interesting in the end tho. Cuz of darl. Actually, I better blog before darl does. She's gonna post like a video and super duper CANDID shots of me. ._. Roar. Totally candid. I see orange appearing from nowhere. I turn. *FLASH* I'm blind. Hahhahaa. Sorry didnt get to send you back home tho! Think yur bro must be talking about me hehe. Oh wells. Stop being so emo kkaes? I know today is like. Emo day, but yea. Cheer up! Ohhs. And we went for dinner, then bowling, then near my place then i sent her to bus stop. Yupps. Fun. And i completed my dare. Cheerios to all! Tata~

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okay, so i'm bored and these blog functions well, to relieve my boredom.
anyways, was fiddling around with my guitar just now and somehow got a tune out. well, being the depressed state i'm in, i wrote a song. like wow, i actually managed too. but gosh, don't read it, cos it's a heartbreaker/depressing song - something that dee likes. -.-

oh wells, it's called "leave".

you said you loved me,
but i don't see that.
i know you said you care,
but all i see is pain.
you do things to me
but..i don't know if you know

why don't you just let me go
i'll think it's best
i need time to think
and be by myself
i don't know what i can do
but i know what i can't
and that is being there for you..

i know your expectations,
of me as your girl
but i don't think that..
i can be that girl now..
why, i don't know, but all i know is,
i fall short of that girl,
no matter how i try...

so i'll just take my time,
and take my leave too,
you don't understand me.
you don't even try!
all, i see, is lipwork itself
but where is the truth?

you pressure and cajole,
but never spared a thought
everything is for your own good,
do you really care?
time is still abundant,
like you always said.
i know you'll try, to stop me from walking
but baby, i need to be myself now.
to be the person i know and love..

you try to control me, and i don't want that .
i need someone stable,
who surprises me and cheers me up,
who cares and loves me too.
and baby, i'm sorry, but it isn't you..

maybe next time, in years to come,
we could try it again,
but there's no promises..
for now, let me go.
or at least, give me time
to sort out my thinking
i'll let you know soon,
but, don't.. be too ..hopeful.

it's okay, dee, you didn't upset me. you were just emo, that's all. mmm.
oh wells. DINNER TONIGHT with D! whee. he wouldn't tell me where. -.-
gahh. nvm. he has a dare from me to do! will he?
what should i buy for him?
yesterday went out with.. someone. it was.. fun. (my legs hurt like crap) except the later part. i don't know what i'm feeling. seriously. it may be a bit too much for me. gosh. what the hell's wrong with me. thank god dee's cheers me up (:
i don't know what else to say. alot of things unsaid. alot of things unknown. alot of things that i'm not sure of, to feel, to do, to say.

i don't like it when you try to do things like that. i really don't. must we go so fast? i'm not ready yet. don't, or i'll break away from you, like i always have done with others. i can't do it, pressure won't change it, saying it's normal won't change it. god, stop, pls. i'm confused now. i just need some time to think. and when i say i want to go, let me go dammit. stop procrastinating. you just want me to stay for your own good. you say things need to be two ways, so far its me doing the travelling. where's yours. i'm tired, pls do something, or i'll do the walking.

Hi darl. Sorry if i was a little harsh yesterday, I'm really sorry.. I didn't mean to hurt you, or mean anything bad. Still, take care ya? Will come online if i can. Luv ya!! See you on Friday.. Sorry our dinner was cancelled yesterday too. ):

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Ok tell me I'm a genius! The blog looks so much nicer now. =) Alrights. I'm off to talk to darl to surprise her now. =)

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Hellos hellos. And yes I'm posting again. And since darl is getting me a thingy more than $10, I'll purposely change the layout again. =) Yay. Lets see. Black background with orange words. Yupps. Nice blog layout. Let's try to do that. Gimme an hr. I'll be back. =)

zomg zombified.

im back. so fast, i know. well i'm obligated to, since dee logs in here often! can't let his effort go to waste!lol. aanyways, so i'm sleep deprived, and food deprived and probably over loved. lol. i didn't sleep a wink all night actually. all his fault actually. he called me at 10 and we talked till 6.45. god. can't even believe it. heh, then funny thing was, dee happened to wake up at 4.35 and upon hearing i wasn't asleep, offerred to kill him so i could get my sleep! lol. so sweet. i slept for 3 hours only.
oh, i woke up to a msg from dee. he asked me out tonight. apparently that ass wants to bring me to this rich ass restaurant for some sorta of buffet dinner. i say don't need, he don't listen. i say i pay, he give alot of.. interesting rebuttals. HAHA. sigh so i guess unless i can steal his wallet, i guess he's paying, BUT i'll for sure get something for him (: more than $10 even! heh.

i just hope baby won't be jealous. sigh. i know he is, a little,despite what he says.

all rights. so thats all for now, i'm a sleep deprived zombie now. dee-> good luck to you later.
and now dee is threathening to bang my house door down to eat, just cos i refused too. heh. i din't eat the whole of yesterday and baby was going crazy. heh.

why am i not eating? i'm driving dee and baby crazy. sigh. dee is sure as hell gonna stuff me like crazy tonight :(

Haha. Hellos to all. I think Sandra is asleep now! Who's the little lazy piggy now!! *grins* oh wells. have a nice sleep darl girl. =) Sweetest dreams!

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wild wild wet trip on 9th june - pictures!!

alright. i've procrastinated enough. i'm gonna put up the pictures we took for wild wild wet trip on 9th june. i had the most mega fun ever! whoots. and i got a darker tan! i like. heh. anyways, we were lucky cos they were having some promotion thing so we managed to rent out free, new olympus underwater cameras. gosh i love the funn man. well, the pictures will show you. (:

it was the most most fun.. till the superb ending - song wen got pick pocketed. you poor dear. hope you're all right now! and you silly, put your wallet safely!

this little dearie here was splashing water at me and evan. i don't know why too. isn't this shot nice? heh. the water effect rocks!
samson in the making.
Go, Ball, GO!
aite, so this cute little dear stole the ball from us. (:
GASPS! call the cops! simin's tryna murder me!
we played till we dropped dead.
so called "breakdancing" pose.
act cool " yo momma" pose.
whattup,homey?

the ball's mine! shoo!

ps: after the shot was taken, i grabbed the ball but the darn ball moved with me and i ended up kissing the floor. -.- twice.

who the heck took this picture!
another one of my oh-so nice *rolls eyes* shots. lol.
my shot -appareantly this picture won picture of the day? i think we qualified for the competition thing.
my water effect again!
simin's the "stone", evan's the "kicker". -.-

Hellos darl. I finished your blog layout already. If you find it too orangy or anything, tell me kkaes? I'll go change it to another color or something. =)

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THANK YOU DEE FOR WAKING UP EARLY EARLY IN THE MORNING TO DO UP MY BLOG!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!! THANK YOU! :)

Disaster.

i swear today is one of those days that just pisses me off. first, oral. right, so val k. examined me. aand. i forgot my name tag. -.- so this is what happened.

me: miss koh, i forgot my nametag. *paisei expression*
miss k: well, then since you're top in english and lit, i'd expect a very engaging, lively, interesting, well versed oral from you. *winks scarily*
me: errr.. okay.. *thinking: die!*

it wasn't the first time she stressed this to me man. so much pressure. but after the whole thing. i guess it was okay luh, her prompting really made things so much easier. it seemed interesting too. till she asked this, which obviously isn't examinable : "so would you like your boyfriend to be able to cook?" !!!!!! wth! and i mumbled a reply, something about romantic or whatever.

best thing. is. i happened to go by the audi again to go for chem, and suay suay she was standing at the door and she gave me the pervy look and said: "sandra ah, romantic horrr." GOSH.

anyways, had chem. then went tiong. and ate at kopitiam. had fun. -.- trained home, yea. home. talking to dee now. :)

Tuesdays are the Love

Hello!!!! Good Luck for your oral darl little girl. Hmmm. If you wanna link anyone tell me the url and address kkae? I put a linking thing there already. All the BEST! tata~

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Light Amidst The Dark..

i've got a sudden fixation on clouds. and i don't know why. geez. this shot looks like a scene out of batman or something.

okay. this is my first post on my newly created blog by D. thank you d, by the way. he's gone to sleep, the pig! lol. oh wells. now i have to keep my blog alive. hurr. tomorrow's orals. how sucky is that. val koh sure gonna expect high calibre from me. urgh. *faints*

hello darl! love ya lots! this is yur new blog kkaes? <3 ya!

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