i swear i'm ever grateful for what you did. it was unexpected,but probably my saving grace as well. i guess it was pretty heartening, in spite of everything that has been happening. with us, with life. it's a whirl. but i'll try. usually i'll contradict and renounce every good thing you said in that, but i guess i'll accept it this time. another thing i must learn huh. *wry smile* thanks for the encouragement, breakdown's been at the tip,but you boosted it up for me a little. : )

ps: it wasn't the physical being of you being there that helped as a friend, but the mental i-know- she-is-there. knowing out there that someone does care out there, somewhere in the excess, it does help.

sandra, you're fucking pathetic. get a life.