this shall be my last quick post for now. i can't wait for exams to be over. i swear it's such a chore. it's been getting to me lately and i'm pretty edgy. sigh. thanks to the teachers for all the help they've been providing. especially to mrs anne lee, ms goh and ms wong. well that's it for now i suppose.

reply tags:

moo: yes i finally changed skin. but it's a lousy one. but aiya, at least more mild than that bright one la.

toothead aka jasper cyril: yes i did. ahha. cool right. haha.

bear: i know! but i'm a noob and i don't know how to resize it. it's defined by blogger so i also don't know la.

leh: you're supposed to make new blogskin for me!

BE ONG: hahahaha. regarding the picture, look above. and yes i did link you la. your lj name so siao one. haha.

bear: of course i know. i'm so smart. don't want. lazy to remove. will leave it there.



and i don't know what to do. really. i thank you for all the help these past few days. but am i trying too hard? how should i react? i know it's wrong to feel/think this way, but i'm confused too. fuck it.

my brother's watchingsome crap song on mtv now. annoying. HAHA. sisi is teaching me the ah lian language online now too. HAHA.damn funny. today was quite productie, i guess. but i was loner today. didn't talk to X the whole day, and certainly not gonna make the first move to. i really don't know what to do, or what you want. you're free, i'm not. if you can't understand that, what do you want from me? i told you right from the start, didn't i? fuck, i know you for sure you're gonna run to your right hand person, bee whatever her name is. you make me feel guilty for studying, you know that? and vice versa. screw it all la.

today was otherwise quiet and prodective. poor jasper can't message because apparently someone put a spell on his phone so he can't send messages to me! ass. and i totally spammed his inbox, to no avail. i have unlimited texts anyways, so whatever. HAHA.

i'm growing fat. lunch and dinner at burger king isnt' what i had in mind for a healty diet. -.- i'm broke too. -.- i'm so going on a crash diet and gyming everyday. yea right. like i can abstain from food. but i'm for sure gonna double up on sports. i can do whatver i want after o's! and go thailand as much as i want too! how cool is that! anyone wanna come? ^.^

ah well. tmr. a new day. a new start. a day nearer to the o's. -.- pfffffft. yesterday was the last day of school. it was fun. cam whored like crazy. inverted eyebrows and all, candid stalker shots, hilarious ms koh and bernice's pics, koren model pics. i love you guys!

today was to be like the most horrendous day of my life. i thought that i'll save myself the trouble of travelling up and down on my usual cycle of mac's and fast food outlets (which is by the way, killing my intestines and building up fats, according to songsong .. an-the-ro-r-i-sil-sis. -.- it's antherosclerosis, but that's her french way of saying it) -.- anyways, so i managed to catch up on some of my sleep. but of course studying was slack. i hate it at home. seriously. and not to mention, my dearest grandmother who crashed at our house since last week (and in the process, cramping my style by chucking my brother in my room -.-) keeps annoyingly coming into my room for nothing at all, except to annoy me! urgh. like even when i'm playing psp! my blood is like boiling cos i'm so pissed off and today i'm on HIGH irritable mood.

when mummy and her proceeded to join me at the dinner table just as i sat down, i did the only logical thing to do - finish my dinner in the quickest possible time and get the heck away from there. and, my stupid maid was laughing throughout while i clanged and banged my utensils ahaha and i finished it in a record time of 4 mins! incredibly my first time. haha. oh wells.

i feel like emoing today and i don't know why. i realised that i have to tighten a little bit on my friendship ties. like some of them i'm so sure of the friendship that i slacken and forget or drift away from them. mm. and some i just need to reach out to further, nevermind my first impressions or hesitations i have. to one, you can say that i'm a little jealous that we haven't been talking, rather, not closely while you grew close to someone else, whom i wasn't exactly fond of, though was okay with. but oh wells. i guess that's life. whatever it is, hope we do stay in contact. and for X, it's thirty days over and another forty five, so you said, days till we can ressume fully where it left off. hope it can last through that period. and i'm really trying my hardest hardest to hang in there. for everything.

and to the stupid crazy liang court clique people, who annoyingly took "scandal but not scandal" photos! haha idiots! you've been a crazy bunch who's brought much fun and laughter to my life, amidst the mad rush for exams. all the best,everyone. our lives will just get crazier by the day. enjoy.

okay today there was school. duh. -.- ah wells. patron's day mass and ceremony of light. haha pictures of that another day. school passed damn slowly. it picked up in the evening... during crew practice! haha well it wasn't the whole crew la. but still! went to our fav hangout, which has been esplanded roof terrace. quite embarrassing to dance with so many people looking la, but who cares. we were fooling around and having fun what! anyways. summary of the fun time.

ps: thank you gaygay for the nice nice photos!

practice: Courtesy of gaygay.

I totally LOVE this : )

then we had constipation.

while defacating, we watched the singapore flyer.

then the sun set above the "durians" .

lastly, ended the fun day with chilling at marina square, bonding with each other : )

welcome the new edition of our guitar collection. an electirc guitar from Fender's. whoo. pictures. i love it. damn pretty.

close up.

Fender Stratocaster.

New member of the house yo!

the fun the after school crew has.

haha okay its friday and this signals the last of my exams. heh.mocks whatever. lol. yesterday was a day spent at the esplanade and we had fun. well we were SUPPOSED to be studying, but with 3 guitars, 3 cameras and music players, we couldnt help but to play guitar, dance, cam whore and have fun! whoo! it was super fun. making the after school crew video was a total disaster but a hilarious one at that! today was spent celebrating evangeline's birthday, which 15 of us went. seemed like a school excursion (head count!) hahah. OH WELLS. slacked the rest of the day off and yea here i am. go figure.

and to the tikos of yesterday's macdonalds, go hump a snail, or i'll gladly gorge out your eyes. -.- dont you know its rude to stare at people while we'r half studying. helf cam whoring? -.-

okay screw mocks now. fuckin chow chow is getting on my nerves. haha. damn stop standing in front of my row when i'm having mocks yo. superbly annoying. especially seeing her grotesque face and pouting mouth. so suay, in ther morning at the bus stop see her face -.-
oh wells, lit paper two was a killer? oh wait, both papers were a killer. my hand was dammit numb by the end of it and i just basically smoked my way through? like i didn't study and i think i went out of point for the essay. -.-

then went out with X. well actually, waited with slyvia. heh. then went candy empire for smt, then went WM, ate some yummy food, and went arcade. haha. basicaly to claim my free game but then oh wells, got some soft toy and lotsa sweets too! heh. then walked home and finally messed up my new 5x5 rubiks. RAWR. it's hard!

i'm totally screwing bio cos i don't give a damn and i'm not studying! heck it leong!

i swear i hate you miley cyrus. you are damn annoying. geez .grow up. damn you. just cos you're miss hannah montana, doesn't mean you are a dancer. oh please, mandy was the one who had to teach you. and you totally won ACDC by flook! they were so owning you please. you just mesmerised the kids a little too much by showing a little too much flesh. go figure. hacked into iphone. pffft. ACDC, i love you and you guys rock. this battle means tuppence anyways. adam, maddchadd, chris breezy and the jabbawockeez, you totally owned them. keep on rocking fellas.

last and not least, yesterday! haha. you've guessed right! i didn't study. i woke up early, i was supposed to study, but i ended up sorting out my TONS of werksheets like wth, it was the worse. heh. like the wholeliving room was filled but i managed to clear it. then i was supposed to study with jasper. that tootheadchose town. ahah and i watched him eat stupidly ripped off yoshinoya food. then we headed to coffee bean and paragon. hoho. we both bought belgian chocolate. yummy yummy. heh. then studied. i managed one chapter before spastic went high and started poking me. -.- rawr. then we were just being retarded about the rubiks cuve. the coffee bean ppl saw us doing and asked me to solve for them. wth. oh well.s of course, from there totall no studying done la. all jassy's fault. cam whore, hand drawings, etc, he bullied my poor frog. ass. he had to go home thereafter and i sat there, waiting for X. then X came and we went off. whoo actually after sitting for 1 hour first. hehe. today was fun. went back, and WHOO! ICAN FINALLY DO THE HANDSTAND!! YES YES YES! air freeze here i come baby!!!

smiles.

waddaya tell ya? he's a spastic.

emo.

finally, a handstand!

okay right. next is the stupid wedding dinner. i'll put the darn dress up la. but don't laugh!

hope you two will live in eternal bliss and may god bless your marriage.

grace and me.

stupid.

friends.

the portion size they'll serve.

conrad wishes you a nice wedding.

haha okay. i realised i have't updated for alot of stuff. so i'll do them in order of posts. first up. the long overdued grad photos. i know bear they all can't see the photos, so i shan't overload with photos. just a few. here they are. btw, that day was super fun.

the early birds. we were super early.

clique 1!

clique 2!

random!

the prisoners.

ms koh and co.

ive got nothing much to say recently. just that i'm probably feeling better, and eating alot of good food. haha. yesterday attended a dinner at the conrad, i had to wear a damn dress. no comments. sheesh i got nagged as well for not going to church and all those too-goo-d-to-be-true stuff i refuse to repeat. today went out with godma. had a ball of a time. well, something else happened, of course, but all i can say is. it's been 3 days.

this thing has been weighing on my mind since night study. i know i said i wouldnt come online but i have to. i know your guard is up now, like everytime you see us together, you'd assume we're talking about you, when really we're talking about perfectly normal things. how did things get to such a stage? i mean, true, i may have done something last year that worsened things, but i do thank you for being so magnanimous about it and letting bygones be bygones. thereafter, i really worked at our friendship, guilt seeping from my past actions. but then, after one and half years, i was prepared to admit that perhaps my first impression of you was wrong. then this. yes, i do know what is happening, but that ain't the issue i have with you. i resent being treated like a disposable, i resent the fact that you always ignored me till you needed something from me. anyone's confidence would have broken by that, but i, either in faith of our friendship, or pure stupidity, stood by your daoness, being there as best as i could when you have stuff to rant, or when you were down over your break up. and after that, as you grew closer to thes rest of the clique, the distance btw you and me seemed to grow. maybe you didn't realise, maybe you didn't bother. if i hadn't been bothered about our friendship, maybe what you did wouldn't have mattered. the fact is, you throw me one side when you're done with me and you simply go along with life as it's normal.so much for friends. yea i accepted the fact that in the mornings you're prob grumpy so i don't bother you. but sometimes, i try to revive our dying friendship and talk to you and it gets to me how distant or cold or couldn't care less replies you would give. or when you've asked everybody in the clique whether they were free and they said no, then would you come and ask me. put yourself in my shoes. would you be "honoured"? would you be hurt? if sucks to know that you regard us so lowly. i didn't mind the fact i was like not top priority in your group of friends but the least you could do was to not chuck me to a corner. like that subway cookie thing. the blatant insensitivity of you could not come through any clearer than that. it was then i realised how much our friendship you really valued. it sucks being pushed, it sucks being used and manupulated, esp to have me on your side for this matter, as you did to the rest who really believe you. yeah, maybe i do derive a little pleasure complaining about your ways, about your doings, as a payback for what hurt you caused, which i know you probably wouldn't understand OR care about anyways. and i do feel guilty, because i'm human and i have a conscience about doing so. maybe the hurt is causing bitterness and vindication that derives my part pleasure, but i still sympathise with you a little for what you're going through now. maybe i'm asking you to let things go, of everything, of this whole blown-out-of- proportion thing with this group of people, but you are stubborn and you won't. someone told me to move on and i'd really try. you know what you did to each individual one of us. and all of us are trying to let it go. i wonder could you ? we never ganged up against you, however it may seem to be now. it was a matter of time before the truth got exposed anyways. this time i can't say i was the cause of this, as i was last year, for this year, it's purely youre misdoings. ultimately, you know us and all we're trying to do is to help you, in any way we can. but if you turn defensive and ignore our help, i guess there's nothing much more we can do or say as just silently wish you'd make the right choice. you may not believe it, but maybe you wont treat us as friends anymore, but we still do care about you, however stubborn you can be. and we never said much about you,so don't look so suspicious.
us wise, i really don't know where we stand now. today i heard something else you said a few days ago and it was a fresh wound to whatever you caused. if our friendship was all but a facade, and you never considered it real, please, don't act like it is cos i really did try my best to be there for you, when now i find out i didn't have to, as all i was was disposable to you.

this isn't meant for you to seem but i need an outlet to vent my frustrations. but in the event you do see it, i've nothing left more to hide.

The AfterSchool Crew was formed on 18 august 2008 by kwang kwang and me. :) our first crew session was on the 20th. and we had a blast. MO, you missed practice! so did wen!

today, we recruited another dancer, or at least, dance lover! welcome, DEBB, the next bgirl. and a few others.

so here's the latest standing of the crew:
co-leader: Sa Cheng ( i need a better name -.- )
(speciality: C-walk/"bgirl")
co-leader: kwang (speciality: body waves and hand waves)
members:
recruit #3: wenli (aka wen wen) (speciality: aces day dance specialist, wearing han bok)
recruit #4: bboy mo-zee (speciality: duh! bboy)

newest :
recruit#5: debbz (speciality: bbgirl)
recruit#6: amanda sim (speciality:)
recruit #7: zita aka pak kim chi (speciality: handstands and concert entrances)


pending requests: eggy, leh, lydia. holla' back yo'!

days recently have been a gloom. i don't know. its not like i wanna stay home, but my immune's system been going insane. ita's like in overdrive. and i can't do nothing to stop it. it's like one moment it's okay then i'll feel all horrible and wanna double up and die. sat was okay, then night everything went downhill. after eating,i'd feel like throwing up. i'll be in a damn lot of pain. then i'd have a headache, then i'll feel super lethargic and then hungry, and when i eat, the cycle repeats. it's so annoying. today i thought a lil' exercise might rrelive the stress and all i was feeling, instead, i barely lasted the usual 10 bowling games. come home and i'm shagged. i just finished dinner and i'm feeling so sick. what the ^&*( is wrong with me? maybe i got aids or cancer or something. the earth will have one less irritant then. life's a bitch. i've been having borderline fevers and i don't know .hot cold hot cold. -.- somebody save me.

the situation's escalating out of control.

today was grad day. photo shoot i mean. haha. it was stunning, seeing everybody drive up in varying colours designs of white. sheesh. oh there was a pontianak there too. aka horse tail! ahah. berns berns. whoo. jk. lmao. chris was in a dress. i tell you, everybody wanted her picture! haha. rare occasion. hoho. oh well.s picture shoot was fun. of cos got told of for my skinnys, but who gives a fuck aye. damn.
after that, we went for class breakfast, quite a big bunch of us actually, we managed to make ms koh come. heh. in the bus, they were drooling over thomas daley's diving. lmao. ate at this cool deli, intor-ed by ms koh. it was a blast, everything was yummy, yet pricey, an omelette cost 6 bucks, believe it or not.
then we went out. walked to cine, went arcade. oh well.s fun fun. benice was super funny, shuffling her feet in her gladiator heels. cos she had blister. i had too, but could still walk. lmao. rawr. the drum thing we played was kinda cool. clique was addicted to it. mm..
interesting things happened on msn. too many to describe.

to you. i'm not your fucking princess. i never was. i don't wanna be. if you don'tget it, i don't ever wanna see you again. in more ways than one. literally. get out of my head, msn, hp. i don't care. get out of my life. you're lucky i ain't blocked you yet. don't make me. you have a surprise coming. prepare yourself, you sob.

and you. i got nothing more to say to you. at least im out of your clutches now.

yesterday was the crew's first informal session. was super fun. just sat in the homeroom, eat, then play music and freestyle. damn cool. haha. our favs were the glides, body waves and cwalk. lmao. and the frigging handstand. -.- oh wells. i love school. like as in the friends..night study. but oh wells. we'll see next week. tomorrow should be fun.

well im sick the past two days. pftft. good and bad. oh wells. i'll be going to school tomorrow though. seems like a bunch of people can't see my blog cos of the pics, so i'll stop, for now. sigh. i'm FAR bahind in my revision. and i feel like dying. oh eff you exams, get the eff away. days has been passed not cwalking. haha watching some videos. my cwalking standard ain't up to par yet yo. and, i'm glad too. kwong sisters and me have been talking and we may set up a dance crew. like for fun. not really like dance dance for competitions and stuff, but for like fun, freestyle together, form a tight friendship with people who love dance. do the bocco bocco together. whatver. haha. THE AFTERSCHOOL CREW. hollarin' at ya, clique!

time for another picture explosion!

today was bloody fun! haha in the end we didn't manage to buy anything, cept for stupid gay watches but, it was one of the fun-nest days! first the moment i got out of the mrt, i saw the crew cam whoring by the river. i was like wth, but joined in. HAHA. there was some kind

of performance thing and we bought the badge. it was nice! we wanted to stay for the performance but we missed it. poo. we went round to shop after eating pepper lunch (again, i ate it last night wiht jas) we couldn't find anything. haha. then we were approached by this group of youngsters who asked us for time to perform some magic tricks. i guess the leader was this quite cute chindian looking guy (hoho!) and another chinese guy. this two performed the tricks, the other 2 are neglectable. anyways, the chinese one fumblede alot. the chindian one was goood.heh. quite cute him. :) i like his smile. funny thing is, they walked off and so did we, and next thing as we walked, me and simin saw them below. they were looking at us and waved, so we waved back. we walked further down and then the chindian laughed and shrugged his shoulders, and said "what", so i shrugged back, and i got beaten by the rest for being a "flirt" LMAO. SO NOT PLEASE. heh. then we kept bumping into them on the first floor. heh then he came up to talk to us as we entered c&k before he went off to perform. HOHO. oh wells. then we went to cam whore again! act emo. heh. mm. then we went bugis for random stuff. didnt buy anything, until we bought some gay watches, lmao. me and sw were acting gay the WHOLE day. as you can see. heh then the rest went off and we went "pak tor" at ps. then homed. sigh. this may be the last post for a while. :)

song wen emo.

gay partner talk.

gay intimateness.

not talking.

heartbreak.

couple shot.

sandra emo.

song wen emo.

sandra emos.

simin emo.

song wen cheated on me!

happier times.

yay!

portrait shot.

hello!

to the right!

so unglam.

mor unglam.

more gay shit.

always by my side :)